A Closeted Goth Girl Trying to Make it in the Professional World

Monday, March 16, 2015


Hello, everyone. I have not been on the computer much lately so I apologize for any late comments on people's blogs. I have been having a difficult time lately due to the death of one of my cats 2 weeks ago. She suddenly became ill in November and we tried many different treatments and saw many different vets. Unfortunately, she was not improving so we had to make a tough decision. This has hit me very hard because she followed me around everywhere while I was at home and she was only 7 years old so I was not expecting to have to deal with this so soon. Also, our other cat, whom we got as a tiny kitten, has never lived without her and he has not been doing very well. It is hard to watch. My house feels very empty without her.

Twiggy "helping" me take blog photos.
I couldn't bring myself to post about this until now...the more times you say it out loud, the more real it becomes. My heart goes out to anyone out there who has lost one of their furry friends, it is absolutely devastating.

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Xmas Presents

One thing that helped me get through my one year makeup no-buy was people giving makeup as presents. My husband got me some new makeup for Xmas this year as there were a few things that I was wanting to try. 


Stuff from NARS, Kat Von D, OCC, and Too Faced

Ooooh and aaaahhh over the lovely packaging!

This is a great red lipstick. It is not matte but not too shiny either; it is also quite long wearing. I found I had to do minimal touchups when wearing it out. It is a classy, bright red that I will get a lot of use out of.


Note that I am wearing NARS Larger Than Life Lipgloss in Norma over top of the lipstick so it looks shinier than it is.



This is a replacement product for me as I totally used up my old one:

I use this baby all the time. I am not one to go for a bronzed look; I instead use this as my go-to neutral blush for work makeup or pretty much any time I am not sure which blush to use as it is flattering and looks good with any type of makeup that I wear.



YEAAAAAAH black studded packaging!!

From left to right: Motorhead, Wonderchilde, and Bauhau5.

DAMN, I love this colour, even in all it's frosty as hell glory. I never throught I would want to wear frosty lipstick but I am kind of loving it! The true colour of this is less pink than in my full face picture and less purple than in the tube picture; it is somewhere in between. It is very bright and neon. I like this lipstick because it is sheer and looks good worn that way but it can be built up for full on frosty lip madness. It applies very smoothly and builds nicely; it stays in place very well and tends to be forgiving as it wears down quite evenly for a more sheer look if you apply it heavily. 


To me, this is like a deeper, more matte version of MAC Rebel.  I LOVE the colour. The formula is very dry so application can be a bit difficult. I have heard others saying it applies unevenly; I personally find it is easy to get an even finish but it DRAGS and CATCHES ones lips which is unpleasant (I guess my lazy ass could just get out a freakin' lip brush or something.) The dryness of the formulation makes it extremely long-wearing, however. Do note that it stains my lips.


Once again, I LOVE this colour! It is perfect for gothing and vamping about. It also looks nice with plain neutral eye makeup if you don't want to over-do yourself. It goes on sheerly so you do need to build it up as it doesn't look good when applied lightly. It is also very unforgiving on dry lips (it shows EVERY little imperfection) so it must be worn on a good lip day. It is nice and long-wearing but is a bit difficult to remove.

I have heard a lot of people complain about the formulation of the Studded Kiss lipsticks; I personally quite enjoy them but all 3 lipsticks were noticeably different in formulation and there were a few irritating things (dry formula, staining, etc).  The range of colours is superb and I would really like to get my hands on Poe (dark navy blue!)




Top: Technopagan. Bottom: Black Metal Dahlia.

These are shiny and metallic!!! I had mentioned Technopagan to my husband and he picked out Black Metal Dahlia all by himself as he thought it was sweet. AGREED. I have not worn these yet but when I do, it will be EPIC. I cannot unfortunately comment on application and wear at this time.

Now that my no-buy is over and I am allowed to buy makeup, I find that I really don't want to all that much! I think I finally kicked my addiction! I am having lots of fun using the lovely things in my collection and will continue with very minimal makeup purchases. At the end of the month, I am also going to go through my makeup stash and get rid of any old products or things that are not useful and organize everything very strictly!! Good organization of one's stash helps one to know what one has and use it!

Does your stash need a good cleaning?

Thursday, February 12, 2015


As a reward for my successful 1 year makeup no buy, I rounded up my MAC empties and took them in for 5 free eyeshadows! I have WAY too many MAC lipsticks and I have always hated MAC eyeshadow but thought I would give it another try. Since I tend to start feeling stir-crazy at this time of the winter (I WANT TO GO OUTSIDEEEEEEEEEEEEE) I decided to pick some colours that would look nice for spring work makeup. My work makeup has been HEAVILY neutral lately and I need to practice adding a bit of colour to my looks without going completely overboard.


I wanted some interesting neutral shades as well as some purples that I could use for work. I LOVE purple eyeshadow but many of the shades I have don't tend to be useful for work makeup. I went with Filament and Vex for my neutrals and Beautiful Iris and Parfait Amour for my purples. Then I saw the bright, sparkly teal of Aquadisiac and my work makeup dreams went out the window!


From left to right: Vex, Beautiful Iris, Aquadisiac, Filament, and Parfait Amour.

From left to right: Aquadisiac, Beautiful Iris, Filament, Parfait Amour, and Vex.
Despite the loudness and sparkle-ness of Aquadisiac, I have actually managed to use it with Vex in some nice, toned-down work makeup. Filament is a bit of a glitterbomb; it does, however, look really awesome over other eyeshadows as a middle of the lid/corner of the eye highlight. Vex is a kind of really light taupe with an opalescent pink shimmer. It is one of those eyeshadows that I can use for a one-shadow look. It also plays well with lots of other colours so I have used it a ton for work already. When the lighting starts to get better, I shall post some spring-y makeup (as you can see from the above photos, the light SUCKS here in the winter!)


Thursday, February 5, 2015


You may recall me mentioning in some of my posts that I was undergoing a NO BUY. My goal was to not buy any makeup (except for staple items) for ONE YEAR. I am proud to say that I have actually done it! I only replaced my primer, foundation, powder, mascara, and black eyeliner in the course of that year. I thought it would be hard but it was a very good thing for me; I have a lovely collection of makeup and I got to use the nice things that I have! It is quite fun to dig through my things and think of neat stuff to do with it. I have decided to continue with minimal makeup purchasing. If I do get anything, it will have to be a replacement of something I have used a lot or something REALLY unique. I will also be focusing on QUALITY and UTILITY rather than QUANTITY. 

Now that I am done my no buy, I am going to go through my makeup drawers, organize them, and throw out any old things that have gone off or are not useful anymore. Is anyone else bad for keeping things because THEY ARE PART OF YOUR COLLECTION even though using an 8 year lipgloss is pretty much gross?



There are a few things in my makeup collection that I could not live without and that get used up and replaced often. These things are quite important to me as I wear a full face of foundation almost every day due to some skin issues. I usually talk about fun coloured things on my makeup blog so today I thought I would sing the praises of my old faithfuls.

MAC PREP AND PRIME: This primer helps to control my oily skin and drastically improves the longevity of my foundation. 

MAC STUDIO FIX FLUID FOUNDATION IN NC15:  I always had a hard time finding a foundation that played well with my crappy skin and matched fairly well without looking too unnatural. When I came across this baby 8 years ago, I never looked back.

MAC SELECT SHEER PRESSED POWDER IN NC15: If you have crappy skin like me, you may need both a primer and a powder to make your foundation behave. This powder has always served me well and is easy to apply with a flat sponge. I HATE APPLYING POWDER WITH A BRUSH OR A PUFF!!! NOOO!!!! DO NOT WANT!!

URBAN DECAY PRIMER POTION: Due to my oily skin, I pretty much could not wear eyeshadow in public and to work if it were not for this product. It is SUPERB. I can work a full shift, come home, work out, and look in the mirror and my eyeshadow will be JUST FINE. Also, the tube you see in the picture has lasted me a year without having to replace it yet!

MAC PAINT POT IN SOFT OCHRE: I use this as a base for my eyeshadows as my lids are quite discoloured. Many people use under eye concealer for discolouration; I find that my lids get discoloured when I am tired and such, not under my eyes. Also, a pot lasts me more than a year.

MAC EYEBROW PENCIL IN STUD: It is the perfect eyebrow colour for me and it stays on really well. 

CLINIQUE HIGH IMPACT MASCARA: It separates your lashes, curls them a bit, and volumizes them just enough for work makeup looks. It also doesn't flake or dry out quickly.

CLINIQUE ALMOST LIPSTICK IN BLACK HONEY: I throw this on to go to work/leave the house all the time. It adds just a bit of colour to your lips, it is very forgiving when eating and such, it looks good with any makeup, and it has SPF and moisturizing qualities. 

GEISHA INK EYELINER: It has the perfect brush tip for my daily cat eye. It has replaced my good old faithful Maybelline Waterproof Black Liquid Eyeliner. Unfortunately, after I used this product almost daily for MORE THAN 10 YEARS, they changed the formula on me. The last several that I bought were watery as hell so I sadly gave up on it.

Thank you to my friend and my husband for giving me makeup as birthday and XMAS gifts as these helped me to get through!

What makeup items do you use daily? What makeup items could you not live without?

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Trust Concert

Hello there! Recently I attended a concert by a really neat Canadian band called Trust. I had been looking forward to it for quite some time as I had wanted to dance to their music live. Unfortunately, the concert occurred right after I broke my damned toe so I was not able to dance. I also had to change my footwear for my planned outfit; the only things I could tolerate wearing were my New Rock boots and even those sucked horribly (and didn't look great with my dress). For my makeup I wanted to pull out some of my indie loose eyeshadows. I picked a few that have colour shifting and duochrome effects and went to TOWN.  I also tried out a "caviar manicure" for my nails. It looks SO cool but I find it only lasts about a day before the beads start to fall off so it is something I would only do for a special occasion.

FACE: MAC Prep and Prime, MAC Studio Fix Fluid Foundation in NC15, MAC Select Sheer Pressed Powder in NC15.
BROWS: MAC Eyebrow Pencil in Stud.
CHEEKS: MAC Mineralize Blush in Sakura.
LIPS: NYX Lipliner in Plum With NYX Medusa Lipstick.
EYES: Base: UDPP and MAC Paint Pot in Soft Ochre.
Shadows: Sugarpill Lumi, Femme Fatale Cosmetics Illusions, The Nightmare, Dispersion, and Inner Madness.
Liners: Urban Decay 24/7 Liners in Asphyxia and Perversion, Geisha Ink eyeliner. 
Mascara: Clinique High Impact Waterproof Mascara.
False Lashes: Random brand.





Hair Scarf: American Apparel
Hair Extensions: Gift from friend.
Earrings: Lemantula Designs.
Collar: Zara.
Dress: Plastik Wrap.
Sleeve: Le Chateau.
Leather Cuff: Handmade by my friend.
Ring: Glue-gunned by me.
Tights: H&M.
Boots: New Rock.


Have you ever tried a caviar manicure? How long did it last?

Saturday, January 24, 2015


Hello! Today I present to you a more classy sort of look for going out to the club. Sometimes when I go out I like to experiment with makeup and try weird things; for this look I just tried to to have the makeup look "pretty". I didn't add much colour to my lips for this, I just used a shiny, sparkly gloss. It is a Givenchy gloss called Celestial Black. I like it because it looks BLACK in the tube but on the lips it is very sheer with holographic sparkles so one could wear it anywhere.
I also wanted to try something different with my hair. I put in my dread falls and basically kept tying little sections in knots on the top of my head. I think it turned out pretty neat!

FACE: MAC Prep and Prime, MAC Studio Fix Fluid Foundation in NC15, MAC Select Sheer Pressed Powder in NC15.

BROWS: MAC Eyebrow Pencil in Stud.

CHEEKS: A Hot Mess Cosmetics Blush in Crushed (made by me).

LIPS: Givenchy Gelee D'Interdit Smoothing Gloss Balm Crystal Shine in Celestial Black.

EYES: Base: UDPP and MAC Paint Pot in Soft Ochre.
Shadows: L'Oreal Colour Riche Love to Hate Me palette, Charming and Audacity from the Lancome Indigo Charm palette, Tease from UD Naked2.
Liners: Geisha Ink, UD Perversion an Psychedelic Sister, Inglot Liquid Eyeliner in 27 Silver.
Mascara: Elizabeth Arden Ceramide Lash Extending Treatment Mascara, Hard Candy Lash Tinsel in Spellbound.
False Lashes: Ardell Fashion Lashes in London.





Necklace: Le Chateau

I enjoy doing looks with purple toned eyeshadow as I feel it works really well with brown eyes.
What colour are your eyes? What eyeshadow colours do you use to enhance them?

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Coral Makeup for Cold Weather

A couple of months ago, I read a post on Eye Heart It about wearing more pink lipsticks for the fall  even though pink tones aren't typically associated with fall makeup. It got me thinking about how many of us tend to associate lighter, brighter colours with spring and summer makeup and darker shades for the winter. Personally I tend to wear more pinks, purples, and peach tones in the spring, bright and bold colours in the summer, and tone it back down to greys and dark blues in the fall. For winter I like black and silver and dark, matte lips. Getting into habits gets boring after awhile so I decided to break out of this silly thinking and try some "off-season" colours myself to end a bit of a makeup rut that I was in! Coral is a colour I ALWAYS associate with summer so I decided to give it a try for my fall and winter makeup this year. I think a nice coral lip contrasts nicely with darker, saturated eyeshadow colours that I would normally wear for fall and winter.

FACE: MAC Prep and Prime, MAC Studio Fix Fluid Foundation in NC15, MAC Select Sheer Pressed Powder in NC15.
BROWS: MAC Eyebrow Pencil in Stud.
CHEEKS: Too Faced Pink Leopard Bronzing Powder.
LIPS: MAC Kissable Lipcolour in Exxx-hibitionist.
EYES: Base: UDPP and MAC Paint Pot in Soft Ochre.
Shadows: Smashbox Electric eyeshadow quad.
Liners: Maybelline Black Liquid Eyeliner, UD Perversion, Tarte Skinny SmolderEyes in Purple Garnet and Azurite Green.
Mascara: Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara.




Do you tend to get stuck in seasonal makeup colour ruts? What colours have you been enjoying this winter?