A Closeted Goth Girl Trying to Make it in the Professional World

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Zig Zag Skirt

Hello everyone! Lately, I have been loving gold and brass toned jewellery. Usually, I am a silver kind of girl but I get bored of my clothing easily and adding different accessories is a great way to change up your outfits! I found a skirt with a fun zig zag print on sale awhile ago and I have been using it in a lot of different outfits with my non-silver accessories. Along with gold and brass tones, asymmetrical earring sets have been popping up everywhere lately which I absolutely love!

I found MAC Dubonnet lipstick in my stash and I actually quite like it now. The first few times I used it I didn't care for it for some reason. My friend gave me some Smashbox Insta-Matte as one of my X-mas presents this year; it is a really fun product! You put it on over your lipstick to make it a matte texture. I also found that it increases the staying power of my lipstick which is great. 


Smashbox Insta-Matte, UD 24/7 Liner in Baked, Smaxhbox Electric quad, MAC Dubonnet, Le Chateau Cuff, A Hot Mess Cosmetics (made by me) blush in Career Woman, Zara earrings.

Shirt: Dex
Skirt: Zara
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell


Shirt and Tights: H&M
Jacket: Zara
Earrings: Karma Victoria (local)

What is your preferred metal for accessories?

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Throwback Thursday - Lip Service

A few days ago, The Mutant Stomp Friends posted about how Lip Service is very likely dead. If this is the case, it feels like the end of an era. If you were into alternative fashion, Lip Service has very likely touched your life and closet in one way or another. I still remember the first time I discovered their website......I was in high school in "computer class" (these days the young people learn to use a computer by the time they are 2 years old so I doubt things such as "computer class" exist anymore). I found their "punk and disorderly" ballgown and wanted to order it for my high school grad. It ended up not being available and I remember emailing their customer service to see if they just MAYBE had any left! I remember they were so nice to me when they emailed me back, it wasn't just some form email that a lot of companies would send you. 

Punk and Disorderly Ballgown
I also worked in an alternative clothing store for awhile when I was in University and I remember leafing through their beautiful catalogues and wanting to buy everything! Today I will share some very OLD pictures featuring Lip Service stuff.


In my apartment that I lived in while attending University. My now-husband picked out this top for me.....I WONDER WHY HE LIKED IT SO MUCH. I also had a bunch of those "Teacher Hit Me With a Ruler" plaid skirts in different colours that were so short they were essentially belts. I had difficulty with wearing an appropriate amount of clothing back in the day.

Clubbing in Saskatoon.....WOW.....that is SOME MAKEUP. Thankfully my makeup skills have improved over the years (or have they?)

Posing in my parent's kitchen....so goth. I'm sure my mother was very proud of me. Why do I have no shoes on?

Clubbing in Edmonton. This dress was awesome; it closed up in the back with little locks and straps. Good thing they were easy to pick if you lost the keys! I still have that purse and use it for going out.


Clubbing in Toronto. My now-husband and I are both sporting tops from Lip Service.

Clubbing in Edmonton. Apparently I could never take outfit photos.....my feet didn't make the cut in this one.

More clubbing in Edmonton. This was and always shall be my favourite outfit of all time. My husband made the collar, I made the arm sleeves, and Lip Service made the rest of it.

I used to be young and full of angst before I knew what angst truly was.

At a VNV Nation concert. We are sporting co-ordinating Lip Service outfits.

In my old apartment. 


Clubbing in Vancouver.

Also at a club in Vancouver. I still have this faux-leather jacket and do use it to go out the odd time. 

Holy crap, I used to look young and thin like a spring chicken, WTF happened? Time, thou art a cruel mistress! How sad it is that Lip Service is likely gone forever.

Did you ever wear Lip Service? Do you have any memories associated with the brand?

Monday, April 18, 2016

Worksafe Monday: Blending in and Standing Out

Recently, I have seen a few bloggers that I follow being kind of apologetic for looking "normal" in some of their outfit posts. Unfortunately, depending on your job and life circumstances, many of us are forced to look like "functional adults" on a regular basis due to the various constraints of society. Whether you like it or not, alternative fashion is just not acceptable in a lot of circumstances and many people have a lot of misconceptions about those who choose to dress differently. I would LOVE to start every day wearing fishnets and blue lipstick but doing so would destroy my job prospects so that is just not going to happen in the real world.  
When I attend club nights, events, concerts, and music festivals, I dress however I want and can freely express myself through my clothing. When I go to work, not so much. I have always loved clothing and the way I dress affects my mood so I have tried to find ways to keep my work outfits at least somewhat interesting. One way that I like to do this is take a perfectly generic outfit formula such as conservative sweater + pencil skirt + scarf + tights and then do something unexpected with it such as wearing 3 contrasting colours at once. What I am trying to say with this outfit is, "I am professional and employable BUT JUST A LITTLE BIT OFF. I am quite functional and conservative but I AM KIND OF NOT ALL THERE." Perhaps this is not quite the message that one should be trying to get across with their work attire.....


Old scarf that I found in my closet, Silk Naturals Doll lip stain, Hillberg and Berk earrings.
I always have to roll my eyes at people who look at me funny when I am not dressed in a socially acceptable manner. IF THEY ONLY KNEW HOW BORING I TRULY AM! I am actually a fairly conservative person who is careful with my finances and takes my job very seriously. I am married with two cats. Some of my favourite hobbies are gardening and reading. *YAWN*


Sweater: DKNY
Skirt: H & M
Tights: Target
Shoes: Le Chateau

Do people ever get the wrong idea about you because of how you dress?

Saturday, April 16, 2016


Hello everyone! Hope you are all having a good weekend! A few months ago, the local art gallery had another one of their late-night parties. They periodically have awesome theme parties with drinking, performance art, crafting activities, DJ's, dancing, and food.  Due to the fact that they encourage dressing up in the style of the theme, these parties often attract the goth/alternative people.....especially this particular one as the theme was METAL. One of the DJ's who does a lot of alternative events here was doing the music.....it was pretty cool to go to a mainstream event and hear  the kind of music I would usually listen to! People interpreted the theme in many different ways; some took their inspiration from metal band attire, some wore shiny, metallic things. 


Hair comb: no idea where I got it, Sugarpill Tiara, Earrings: made by my friend, Purse: Vince Camuto, UD Naked Palette, KatVon D Metal Orchestra, MAC Cinderfella, OCC Lip Tar in Black Metal Dahlia.

This shade of lip tar was procured for me by my husband - he actually has decent taste in makeup apparently ;)


Collar: Forever 21
Necklace: Aldo Accessories
Top: Guess
Jacket: Le Chateau
Waist Belt: no idea, found in the depths of my closet
Wristband: Made by my husband when we were in high school 
Skirt: Express
Tights: Ebay
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell


The weather is really nice today......time for a beer on the deck! 
Have a lovely weekend!

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Leather Jacket

I keep hearing everyone talking about spring trends and pastels and sandals but is is still fairly cold out where I live! Not that I am complaining; I can thankfully continue to wear tights, boots, and jackets before the dreaded heat comes to ruin my outfit-making potential. 
I have talked about my love of cropped faux-leather jackets at length on this blog; did I mention that I also love real leather cropped jackets? I recently found a nice one for a decent price....it even has SHOULDER PADS. Oh, shoulder pads, my broad shoulders and I just can't quit you. 


Jacket: Zara
Skirt: Groceries Apparel
Boots: Guess


Earrings: Buffalo David Bitton, MAC Faultlessly F/W lipstick.
How's the weather in your neck of the woods?

Saturday, April 9, 2016

I'm A Snaaaaaaaaaaaaaake

It is Saturday so it's time for a clubbing outfit! This outfit features a Killstar Clothing dress with a ridiculous snake print. The print is pretty obnoxious and it was in the clearance section of the website so I bought it even though I was not so sure about the cut of the dress. The dress fits; unfortunately the cut is loose in the bust and natural waist area and tighter in the stomach/hips area which is the opposite of what I would normally go for. I believe it would be more flattering on a thinner person with a smaller bust. It looks okay from the front but if you are looking at me from the side it is less than flattering to my figure. Damn you, online shopping! Nevertheless, I really really like the print on the dress so I wore it out to the club where it is dark enough to hide any clothing flaws ;) If I were to wear it in better lighting, I cropped jacket over top would fix the problem.


MAC Cremesheen Glass in Jet Boy, Kat von D Studded Kiss Lipstick in Plan 9, Lady Gaga Fame perfume, UD 24/7 Liners in Graffiti and Junkie, Stila Liquid Eyeliner in moss, Fyrinnae Dressed to Kill Eyeshadow, The Rogue and the Wolf ring, earrings from Le Chateau.



I bought Kat von D Plan 9 lipstick while on a slightly intoxicated trip to Sephora in Vegas. It seemed like a good idea at the time. It is not as patchy as it appears in the above photo; I put lipgloss over top which diminishes the staying power of the lipstick.
For my hairstyle, I did a wet-styled bun mohawk. If I can wet-style my hair into submission, it's a good day.


Because I am a complete idiot, this is all that I can think about whilst wearing this dress. God bless YouTube.

I'm a snaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaake

Top: American Apparel
Dress: Killstar Clothing
Body Jewelry Beaded Neck Thing: Nightshade Corsets (local)
Tights: H & M
Shoes: Fluorite by YES


Do you suffer from fit issues when ordering clothing online? 

Thursday, April 7, 2016


For some reason, I have been feeling rather nostalgic about clothing lately and this has influenced many of my purchases. In the fall there was a heeled-hiking boot sort of trend happening and when I saw the shoes pictured below I had to have them even though they would not be something I would usually go for.


When I laid eyes upon these, they reminded me of outfit shopping for back to school when I was a kid. I can't remember how old I was specifically but I recall that when the summer break was over, my mom and grandmother would take the kids shopping and we were usually allowed to get a new outfit for back to school. I distinctly remember being allowed to put together my own outfit one year and I just felt like a million bucks in it. I believe it was the early 90's and I was in grade school; I picked out a pair of green jeans, a waffle-material top that was a lighter shade of green, a silver necklace with a leather cord, and a pair of hiking boots that looked exactly like the ones pictured above (minus the heel). Even though my taste was (and still is) questionable (green jeans???!?!?), I felt like I was just stylin'. I love the way a good outfit makes you feel and these shoes reminded me of that feeling. I have been wearing them a LOT despite the fact that 90% of the time I would usually wear a black shoe. They are comfortable enough for walking in and are a nice, refreshing addition to my wardrobe. 
Thankfully, I am not feeling nostalgic enough to go out and purchase a pair of green jeans.* That's where I draw the line.


Earrings from funnybunnyjewelry on Etsy, Smashbox Electric Eyeshadow Quad, UD 24/7 Liner in Eldorado, Clinique Almost Lipstick in Black Honey, Necklace from Zara.


Top: Dex
Skirt: Zara

The above outfit was worn to a casual dinner with friends. It consists of a top and skirt that I wear all the time (they have probably been on here before).  I add different shoes and accessories and it's like I have a whole different outfit!

Do you remember any of your favourite outfits or items of clothing from when you were a kid?

*No offense to you if you happen to sport green jeans. They're just not my bag, baby.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Camo Coat

When I was digging through some old stuff the other day I found something that I used to wear when I was younger. It is a camouflage button-up shirt that I got from a store back in my home town that bore the less than politically correct name "Quinn the Eskimo Army Surplus." I sewed on some band patches, an anarchy symbol from an old t-shirt, and added some studs and wore it as a coat back in the day. I felt nostalgic looking at it and it inspired me to try to find something similar but more adult and modern. I found a light spring camouflage coat at Zara and have been enjoying using it to make goth/90's/modern sort of outfits with it ever since. 


Le Chateau infinity scarf, Guess sunglasses, Studio Valyr earrings, Portland Black Lipstick Company Blood Red.

Coat: Zara
Skirt: Groceries Apparel

I always enjoyed making outfits when I was a teenager because I had the freedom to wear whatever I wanted 90% of the time. Do you ever feel nostalgic about clothes you used to wear?

Saturday, April 2, 2016


Woo-hoo it's the weekend and I have it off! The weather is gorgeous and I have club nights to go to! AWWW YEAHHH! Anyway, here is a club look featuring snowflakes.....hopefully at this point in the year I won't be seeing any more of those.


Sugarpill eyeshadows in Mochi, Afterparty, and Velocity, Sugarpill Dewdrop Kisses false eyelashes, Sugarpill Chromalusts in Tiara, Starling, and Lumi, MAC Mineralize Eyeshadow in Cinderfella, MAC Lipglass in Comet Blue, UD 24/7 Liner in Radium, Inglot liquid liner in 27 silver, NARS blush in New Order.


Hair Flowers: Made by my friend
Earrings: Le Chateau
Necklace: Callooh and Callay
Armwarmers: Nimue's Latex
Corset: OohLaLatex
Top and Skirt: Ego Assassin (Canadian!) (Not around anymore :( )
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell

What are your plans for the weekend?